Final Days of Summer

For me, the summer has flown. I took a class that I did not really want to take, and I took a job that I was hoping not to have to take, but today - TODAY - is my final exam - I get to finish this class and I get 17 days of this summer to make something happen for myself.

I have things I want to do and plans I want to finish - so that I can start this semester (and what remains of my college goals) with a clean slate and zero projects.

I want to finish our gazebo, and finish painting the outdoor furniture, finish the "Honey Hole" (which is this imagined little spot where the carport used to be), I want to make sure no more trees die on my property and take good care of my grandfather's rose bush (tree really).

I want to get the porch rails up and finished, and help the band and the flag girls, I want to make a list of "100 Things to Do before I Graduate" for my son (this is his senior year).

I want to enjoy the remainder of the summer - drama free and without interruption. Oh, and I need to have a garage sale (which should be fun with the temperatures being what they have been).

For those interested that thermometer is on my back porch and shows what the temperature is today at my house here in Texas (it is August 6, 2012 and it is HOT today). I am thankful that for today, I am inside and though procrastinating, am about to take my final exam. Here is to one more "A" - I am throwing everything I have at this one. I hope to get it all done and I will blog along the way about my progress or lack thereof...cheers (and stay cool).

Focusing the mind...

I struggle from time to time between the things that I must do and the things that I want to do. Today, is one of those days. Actually, the past three weeks have been one of those days.

I love the outdoors, I never thought I would really love it like I do, but I love it dearly. My body craves sunlight. If there are too many cloudy days I get sad, if there are too many days when I do not get to go outside... I get sad.

My short summer stint at the camp, left me wanting to be outdoors, and when I realized I could not get everything done for the bar-b-q in time with a job, and a class, the job had to go so I could get it done. I did get it done. I spent the remaining two weeks before the bar-b-q outside, cleaning up the yard, straightening projects out, creating a place to do the projects and cleaning the house. It paid off when our house was full of friends and family and everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves. But after the "goal" had been reached (time-frame wise), I had to immediately get back to my class and finish it up. I am in the last stretch of it - I have two tests to take and I'm done with calculus and it is all that I can do to even look at them.

It isn't that I don't want to. I do. I can't wait to finish them so I can have the two weeks of the summer left to finish some of my projects... but I can't make myself sit down and DO THE WORK. My mind is tired, it is full of worry, and I am wondering at this point if I should continue on with calculus. It is kind of a booger for me - I am learning it - but I am not enjoying it. Don't I need to enjoy that to be an engineer? Ack... am I running down the wrong path?

So, I am wrapping up this note or thought as it may be, and I am hitting the books. I will write again when the work is finished and my mind is somewhat at ease.